Last month was Elijah's birthday. She is a 5 year old girl now. I used to think and talk about her all the time as 'my little baby', which I can no longer do. She has become my girl or rather I should address her as 'my daughter' in future when I talk about her to others.
That remaining a new but strange realisation, another scary thought passed through my mind. ''I AM GETTING OLD''; Did u hear that?
For Elijah perhaps I am going to be a boring old Mom.But for me everyday as she grows up is going to be exciting,new and fearful. I worry about her future. I think all Moms do, but Elijah is special, a very special kid. She doesn't understand the world as it is and the world doesn't understand her as she is.
I just hope that she finds some super special friends from amongst the so called normal kids.
So far my girl doesn't know the pain of rejection, humiliation of being different,despair of being lonely. I simply cannot hold the thought of her yet to discover emotions while going through these normal phases of life.Will she be able to cope up? Answer is I DON'T KNOW.
Well, I hope this is how life tastes like. Sometimes its difficult to swallow and sometime it is even more difficult to spit it out. I hope the best for Elijah. So now a days all my prayers start with Elijah and ends with Elijah.
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